It's another boring post (don't read if you don't want to sleep)

Hola amigos,

It's me again.
It's another boring Monday.
Usually the boringness is due to the first day of the week (I mean working).
But today ain't a day for me to work, yet still feel the same.
I think even worse.
Past 2 days is the days where I can hangout with my friends after quite sometime,
which includes Saturday and Sunday (2 consecutive days).
Seriously, I've been looking forward to these 2 particular days for over a week.
I can't even focus on my work to contain the excitement.
Yesterday (Sunday) is the day of our mini reunion.
Planned last minutely by Mr X.
The day before, I'm having a tiny reunion with Mr M (3rd followers), Ms T and 2 others.
But I can't even enjoy.
I'm not as happy as I thought I would be.
I don't know the reason of it (seriously) and the reason I'm writing this.

Now that I think about it, what is it that I wanted the most?
Was it happiness? wealth? attention? knowledge? friends? lovers?
Was it really one of the above? and how do I get it?
I can't even tell which one do I really need, or which one do I really want.

Happiness?
Can it be achieve by doing something I like or getting something I want?

Wealth?
can I become rich by working till my bones out?
Is becoming rich going to make me any different than now?

Attention?
What do I gain by getting people's attention?
And who's attention really I'm hoping to get?

Knowledge?
Is knowledge really my concern?
What kind of knowledge do I want to gain?
And any specific reason for seeking those knowledge or just knowledge for knowledge's sake?

Friends?
What kind of friends?
Don't I have lots?
Are those really friends? or acquaintances?

Lovers?
Have I ever had one?
Have I ever fall for anyone?
Will telling them changes anything regardless of their answer?

Is achieving one of these things will lead me to the others.
I guess I was affected by Honey and Clover.
Asking all these question.
Expecting an answer.
Whilst it can only be answer by me alone.
Only that I don't have the answer.
I guess the only initiative that I can take is to watch Honey and Clover again.
Hoping to find something.

Currently, I felt like I've lost my reason for living.
But I have a feeling that I lost more than just reason.
Just need to know what it is.

Tomorrow is going to be another typical day.
Without knowing the purpose of doing all those thing that I will be doing tomorrow.
I mean the real purpose.

To those who's reading this,
I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Not knowing the reason of thanking you guys and the reason of posting it.

Sayonara...

Today is the first day for many things...

Konnichiwa

rajin plak ak blogging malam ni...
just smbil2 menuggu dlod abis tu pasal la...
pc ni pon...
eh, silap...laptop ni pon kdg2 bengong, klu ak tggal dlod n tdo ke ape, ttbe dlod hanged & failed.
mbazir quota bb ak je...
sbbkn nk bnda yg ddlod tu, tgu je la...
seb bek ade idea skt nk tulis ape kx ni..

ak rase pos kx ni mmg akn ade kene mengena ngn tajuk kot.
n merujuk kpd tajuk di atas...
i think i'll list down 1 by 1.

first skx, hari ialah hari yg pertama ak mggunakan AL ak...
nk guna time raya x dpt, kne reject, smlm pon x bole, arini baru bole...
tp apsal ak mntk cuti arini?
cm xde function je...
bukan dpt cuti bersambung dpd jmaat sabtu ahd pon...
well, sbb2nye adlh list no 2 utk tajuk post kx ni

second, sbb arini nk servis kete utk pertama kx nye...
kjap tul meter ak smpi 1000...
padahal br kuar skx 2 je
ye la dok ulang alik ipoh-kl je mne tak naek 200 km tiap2 round..
elok plak sabtu lepas ni g melancong ke teluk batik jap...mandi...hehe
oopss...kpd kengkawan yg nk mandi laut, sila la set date & time...
ak ok je nk g...
oo, berbalik kpd servis kete...
bende kalo da 1st time ni, mcm2 bole jadi...
elok la plakpas ak da bg kunci kete kt org tu, pastu die dtg blk kat ak & bertanya...
"Encik, kete encik ade auto lock ye?"
ak pon x taw mende die ckp, tp judge dpd direct translationg pktaan "auto-lock" tu,
rasenye x penah plak kete ak lock sdri...
klu da jalan lbh kurg 2-3 minit tu br la die lock...
tp ni die kte pintu TERtutup & kunci ade kt dlm...
adoi...
ptutnye servis bole setel kul 11am...
tp smpi kul 11am tu still diorg dok godek2 lagi kete ak xle bukak sbb kunci ade kt dlm kete...
kul 12.30pm cmtu br dpt bukak, x tau la cmne diorg buat,
tp kete ak ni klu x pecahkan tingkap mcm payah je nk curi...
bgus la kot klu cmtu...
haish...
seb bek la ak bwk psp...
dr kul 9.30am ak men smpi kul 1.30pm, br siap...
padahal servis yg 1st, bukannye full servis yg pas 5000 or 10000 km tu...

......
haram punya bb, bole plak ttbe dc...
sje je nk bg file ak dlod td fail...
ak da mbazir quota & masa skg ni...
sigh, restart dlod blk...

sambung topik...
yg ketiga plak,
sbb nk renew lesen,
first time ke???
lesen tu da byk kx da renew,
tp ni first time ak buat sndri...
selama ni ak suh ayh ak je renew tiap2 taun..
tu la, da buat sdri ni, elok plak org tu tny, "nk berapa taun?"...
ak ni klu korg kenal ak cmne, ak akan terus tny "maximum bpe taun?"...
bpe taun die ckp, ak accept je
sbbkan mls nk ulang alik tiap2 taun smata2 renew lesen je...
skg ni lesen ak expire ujung taun 2017...
xpyh nk pk2 renew lesen lg taun dpan...
ntah hayat ak cukup x nk renew lesen lg pasni ntah la...

lg yg keempat...
hmm...yg keempat...
eh, yg keempat ape eh??
ak rase td ade byk, tp npe ad cm ade 3 je????
x guna tul...
klu cmtu, just cut it short....

sayonara...
da xde bende nk tulis...
ni la masalahnye klu snng lupe...




Legends:

AL - Annual Leave
dc - disconnect